Oyes. 'Tis my 16th birthday ;DDD Now to go get my DRIVER'S LICENSE.

Twi is about to be street legal people, so lock your doors and keep an eye on your children. >D

Man it's been a long time since I last updated this thing o.o Last update was in October? Sheesh. I've been checking here once in a while, and I'm really impressed with all the work that all my friends here have been doing; you all have improved so much I love looking at your pieces of work. They're all, like... Awesome and stuff. .3. Major props to Kana, Sarie, Oogee, and Mac for their work; I really love looking at your guy's art the most, they're all awesome. <33 I've still been here, stalkin' you guys. I just WANTED you to think I was dead.

'Neways. I reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreeeeeeeaaaaallllllyyyyy want to ask for Horseracer's forgiveness, since I still have yet to post my half of the trade ;.; I feel awful, especially since the one she made me was made of awesomesauce. I haven't forgoten you, I promise xD Procrastination mixed with mounds of school work have been dragging me down for a while Grometry, Biology, and American history are the three worst subjects in the world and the homework KILLS. *Headdesk*

So yeah. That's it. 8D kbai.

Welp, I haven't updated my journal in a while so I thought it was about time I get around to doing so, lul. Nothing much to say, though. Marching season is about to come to a close; we went to our last contest Friday and got pretty good scores, though the judges were stupid. -.- We should have gotten better =\

So I haven't been drawing pretty much anything 8D Been checking here all the time for other deviations and such. Need to get back in the game and start drawin' stuff again, lul. I've been doodling here and there, and made a pretty cool little bear skull in my English notebook that I'm thinkin' about scanning. If you really want to pay attention to what I'm drawing your best luck is in my scraps; I'm prolly gonna be uploading a bit in there, nothing too important though.

Still feeling down, and every once in a while I'll get this little twinge in my stomache and I'll almost cry, then force myself to forget about it. I can't handle any more crying. I had a dream about her last night, though. Can't say it was good, but she looked exactly the same as I remember her... Her voice, her personality, and even the way she smelled, was all exactly the same. I miss her so much... She was practically what tied me down. I talked to her all the time, even though she would every once in a while veer off course and start talking about something I had no interest in. I really miss her. Sometimes I actually think I hear her voice when I go to her house. It's engraved in my mind, her muffled voice sounding from deeper within the house than where I'm at. It's... Lonely. I still feel that way. Lonely. Really, really lonely. I don't have anyone to watch tv with at night anymore. Staying up until around one watching weird ER shows on the health channel.

Mhm, that pretty much sums up how I feel right now. Meh. My mood has continued to spiral downward ever since /that/ happened, and it doesn't look like it's going to get any better soon. And since I don't wanna bore anyone who's actually reading this with my "I hate life right now" thing, I'm just gonna talk about something that happened last week..

We (the select choir at school) went to sing at the VA (a big-normous hospital here) to celebrate "National POW and MIA" day. POW = Prisoners of War, and MIA = Missing in Action. We sang the national anthem and this other pretty song that I can't remember the name of right now. There was this old guy in a wheelchair who screamed everything he said... I thought it was funny. It was all quiet and then all the way across the room I hear, "OH, NOPE, I DIDN'T GO THERE." Old people are cute.

I seriously just wanted to say thanks for all of your nice comments and everything... It really is making me feel better, and I am a lot better now than I was last week. ^^ A lot of people, not just from online, have reached out to us and helped so much. Our neighbors cooked us dinner and offered for our family to stay at their house, which was incredibly nice, we're getting flowers and cookies from various other people, we're getting phone calls from strangers who are saying they're sorry for the loss... It's all so nice and I'm really happy to know that someone actually cares.

On a totaly unrelated note; school.

I recently joined Nike club, hoping to keep my mind off of stuff and help me get back on track again. For those of you unfamiliar with Nike, it's basically a community club. We go out and visit nursing homes, dance with the blind kids, bring cards to the school for the special needs kids, and so on. It's a really nice club and I'm glad I joined it.

Though, we have to go through initiation this week... Basically what they're trying to do is see if we can handle awkward and embarrasing situations, because we might be faced with those later on. (For example, once they visited the nursing home and a guy was just lying on his bed, totally naked... Yeah. I thought that was hilarious.) So every day this week we have to dress up all day at school. Monday is old person day, Tuesday is Christmas tree day, Wednesday is Mime day (that means we can't talk either! That'll be interesting.), Thursday is zombie day, and Friday is hornet day. This week will be very interesting, that's for sure.